Filled with Purpose

I am a perfectionist. I love having a plan. I love making lists of things that I need to do, of things that need to get done, lists in general. I love even more when things go according to plan, and sometimes I have a bit of a hard time when things don't go the way that I want them to.

A few of my friends graduated from college recently. (I know, I have friends in college. Whaa??) I love listening to them talk about what their goals are, what they are going to do, where they are going, etc. Hearing what they have to say, I get so eager to get on with my life and accomplish goals and dreams and have everything fall into place. Now, I know that it doesn't work like that. Life rarely goes according to plan; the only thing that we have control over in life is ourselves. We can't control the weather, our genetics, the decisions that other people make, time, etc. But listening to these people talk about what they are doing with their lives and where they are going starts to get me a little antsy for the future - I want the future to come now. Summer is an absolutely wonderful time of year. Beautiful weather, less stress, time to relax, no school. Just work and dance and play (which, in all reality, turns into more sleep). I'm anxious to get going with life though, and be doing important things. I start my major, athletic training this fall. Team starts up again this fall, and the competition season with it. School kicks back up again, dragging homework and studying and quizzes and tests behind it. 

And then I think about it. I don't know exactly what my future will bring, where I will end up working, if I'll go to grad school, how long my dance "career" will last, when/if I'll get married and who I'll get married to. But I do know that I'll start studying to become an athletic trainer. I'll do my clinical assignment with the dance department (yay!). I'll be on team, I'll work on technique. I'll take lessons weekly and practice daily and compete on weekends. I'll get to wear Nike and BYU Sports Medicine clothing and dance clothes 24/7. I'm determined to make this the best academic semester that I've had yet - I'll study and do homework and study some more and take tests and quizzes, and take even more tests. 

I do have a plan. I may not be working a full time job on salary or leaving the state for an internship or moving to grad school with my husband, but I will be busy, and I will be working toward accomplishing my goals. As long as I've got a purpose, life will carry on. Well, I guess it will go on, even if I'm not doing something :P. 

And since it's Sunday, enjoy one of my favorite scriptures. 

from deseretnews.com